The passage is lonely,
Once again the moors are dark,
Walking in the mountains,
Once again the sky is mellow,
The heart is cold,
Once again the moon is reddish
Tempting me to leave my curse
Back on the ones whom
Would never wished
to be MINE...
While closing all the bonds
That keep me ALIVE,
I see the footsteps of a dark shadow,
Taking me to the exotic places
In which I forget the wounded cycles
Made me isolated, made me devastated,
Made me an uncontrollable monster...
Once again, the autumn comes,
Once again the leaves are holding a grief,
Maybe this time, the autumn will
Bring me a luck
In which I would find
The serenity that I always have looked for...
Good night THE HUMANITY I HATE...:)
Into the woods Mary Anne,
Into the woods Mary Anne,
Sweet lilies are shining upon us,
Sunflowers are dancing like sex machines...
Mary Anne gets crazy with the LEON,
LEON takes Mary Anne,
Into the caves Mary Anne,
Into the caves Mary Anne,
Joyful butter flies are appearing,
On the horizon,
The lustful thoughts turn into CAPTIVITY,
The sun rises while LEON takes Marry Anne...
THE BEST EVER...
FOR WHOM?
WHOMEVER LEON REFERS TO?
DOES IT MATTER FOR HIM?
WHO IS HE ANYWAY?
HE AND ME ARE NOTHING...
INTO THE FANTASIES...:)
BYE FOREVER GIRL:)
Sentimental feelings grow
Day by day...
The lust between us
Gets out of CONTROL...
He loves to control,
I love to be controlled...
His non stop kissing me
Floats me into the sky,
Sentimental feelings make us AROUSED,
Losing the control,
We are both getting out of the WAY,
We love, we desire, we want...
Our thirsty lips lick each other's dryness...
Yet, we fall APART...
PS: This SHIT IS OVER REEVES...
GET OVER ME!!!
If only I could know the truth,
If only I could kiss him for the last time,
If only we could feel each other under the rain...
If only we could hold too tight,
So that no one can FALL us APART...
If only we could walk hand by hand in the snow...
If only I could look at his eyes,
If only I could tell him that
I would never forget him,
If only I could tell him that
I would ask his forgiveness...
If only I could touch him,
If only I could feel his lips on mine deeply
Our tongues are dancing within another
Deeply, deeply, deeply...
If only I could have him again...
Only him, only him, only him...
If only we could get wet under the sun,
Without stopping our kissing, and passing through the gate of
Our repressed feelings towards
Sex, sex, sex...
Hey boy,
Hey girl,
We need love,
We need to make love,
We need to get back together
To have a little baby,
We need to be brave,
We are the ones,
Left alone,
Let us be alone
Within a twisted body,
Full of lust,
Passionate songs are playing,
We are just the ones
Felt devastated...
We need to make love,
We need to forgive...
PS: Amazingly, I MISS MY EX BF... Universe fucks things up... We never will make LOVE...
To love or to be loved? Which one would you CHOOSE? Well, I would CHOOSE NONE OF THESE... MY HEART HURTS BADLY... I realized that I REALLY LOVE THAT KEANU... I LOVE HIM THROUGH HIS JOHN CHARACTER... However, this JOHN guy is REEVES... I DO NOT LOVE HIM BECAUSE HE IS AN ACTOR... WHAT KIND OF A SHIT IS THIS... I SWEAR I LOVE THIS GUY... ALL ARE LIES... I wonder does he really love me as KEANU or as John? I want to know the TRUTH... I AM A REAL PSYCHIC, BUT I CAN'T TRUST MY SPIRITS TO KNOW THE TRUTH... I CAN'T TRUST THE DEAD ONES I CHANNEL TO LEARN THE TRUTH, EITHER... What is the point anyway? He told me to leave me ALONE... He told me that he wants NOTHING from ME... I DO NOT WANT ANYTHING FROM HIM, TOO...
I know we did not BREAK UP... WE ARE NEVER LOVERS OR FRIENDS... HOWEVER, WE ARE TOGETHER... Ok, NO ONE GETS THE POINT... WE ARE TOGETHER... IT IS TOTALLY A DIFFERENT EXPERIENCE... HONESTLY, MY MUM TOLD ME THAT HOW CAN I UNDERSTAND THIS. I HAD NEVER EXPERIENCED SUCH AN ABNORMAL THING AS YOU DID... WELL DONE MOTHER, YOU DID NOT EVEN TRY TO HELP... IF I HAD A DAUGHTER, IF MY DAUGHTER HAD EXPERIENCED SUCH A SPIRITUAL CONNECTION OR SPIRITUAL LOVE, I WOULD SEARCH FOR IT AND I WOULD TRY TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IT MEANS... I WOULD REALLY TELL HER WHAT I GET FROM IT... AT LEAST, I WOULD SEARCH AND WOULD SHARE MY OWN OPINION WITH HER... OF COURSE, I WOULD NEVER DISAPPOINT HER... HOWEVER, I WOULD LOOK THINGS UP FOR HER... I DO NOT KNOW WHY I AM VERY MAD AT MY MOTHER... OVERALL, SHE IS NOT A SPIRITUAL WOMAN... SHE BELIEVES IN GOD... TO BE HONEST, WHAT CAN SHE UNDERSTAND? LOL LOL LOL LOL....
However, this actor loves me... One part of me is telling me that he really LOVES ME... Should I really believe IT? Honestly, I am skeptic and I believe in NOTHING... In such a sense, I DO NOT BELIEVE THAT HE LOVES ME... Other part of me is telling me that he never LOVES ME even as a person... Should I believe this? I can't believe this, either... Guess why? I can't believe this because this man is TALKING TO ME SINCE 4 YEARS... If you do not love someone, you just THROW THAT PERSON AWAY... We are on and off interacting with each other... We do not become friends... We do not become online lovers, either... We become NOTHING, BUT WE STILL HAVE A CONTACT WITH EACH OTHER... SO, THIS IS LOVE!!! This is an ABNORMAL LOVE...
It is not a romantic LOVE... Love is love, guys... ADMIT THAT EVERYONE IS LOOKING FOR LOVE, BUT THEY NEVER FIND IT... I GUESS WE FOUND IT, BUT WE CAN'T FACE WITH OUR FEARS... WE HAVE A LOT OF TRAUMAS AND WORRIES... WE HAVE A LOT OF ISSUES IN OUR LIVES... WE ARE BOTH CRAZY... WE ARE NOT CRAZY MENTALLY, BUT WE ARE BOTH COWARDS TO ADMIT THAT WE REALLY DO LOVE EACH OTHER...
To be Loved is a GOOD FEELING, but IT CAN BE A BLOCK in your lives, too... To love is a good feeling, but IT CAN BE the cause of your depression, in your lives, as well... Therefore, to be loved or to love won't MAKE YOU A HAPPY PERSON... THIS IS LIVING THROUGH ANOTHER TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE... IT HURTS YOU MORE THAN OTHER PEOPLE HURT YOU... I AM VERY SURE HE GETS HURT, TOO...
ANYWAY, TO LOVE OR TO BE LOVED IS JUST AN EXPERIENCE THAT I HAVE TO GET THROUGH... I LEAVE HIM ALONE BECAUSE HE IS TOTALLY CLOSED UP... HE IS NOT OPENED UP TO TALK TO ME ABOUT HOW HE FEELS... WHEN HE IS OPENED UP, I AM NOT OPENED UP TO TALK TO HIM ABOUT HOW I FEEL... LOOK, YOU CAN'T PLAY A GAME WITH SOMEONE FOR 4 YEARS... YOU BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER, BUT YOU BOTH CAN'T BE TOGETHER... WHATEVER THE REASON IS WE CAN'T MAKE IT TOGETHER... I COULD JUST BE HIS FRIEND, BUT IT LOOKED LIKE IT NEVER HAPPENED... MAYBE, I COULD NOT BE HIS FRIEND... HOWEVER, HE NEVER TRIED TO BE MY FRIEND TOO... IT FAILED... IT WAS A GAME, BUT IT TURNED OUT SOMETHING VERY SPECIAL... SOMETHING VERY PRECIOUS... YOU CAN'T KEEP THE CONVERSATION WITH SOMEONE IF THAT PERSON IS JUST FUN FOR YOU... THE CONVERSATION STOPS WHEN THE FUN IS OVER... MAYBE, WE DO NOT LOVE EACH OTHER, BUT WE FEEL SOMETHING FOR EACH OTHER... I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IT IS... I WISH I COULD KNOW...
REGARDING MY MOTHER'S COMMENT, I GIVE NO FUCK... IF YOU ARE AN ABNORMAL PERSON, YOU EXPERIENCE SUCH A SPIRITUAL LOVE OR SPIRITUAL FRIENDSHIP... I WON'T BE A MOTHER, SO I WON'T BE SAD FOR MY DAUGHTER AT ALL... I AM SO SAD AS A PERSON... I CAN'T IMAGINE TO BE A MOTHER... I CAN'T IMAGINE TO HAVE A KID... I CAN'T IMAGINE TO BE WITH SOMEONE, EITHER.... LIFE MADE US MEET ONE ANOTHER FOR A REASON... I JUST WANT TO KNOW THE TRUTH...
THE TRUTH WILL BE A MYSTERY... LIFE IS TOO SHORT AND EVENTUALLY WE WILL BOTH DIE... IF I CAN CHANGE THE FUTURE, I WOULD CHANGE IT... IT DOES NOT ONLY DEPEND ON ME, BUT OUR CASE INCLUDES NO HOPE ANY MORE... I JUST LEAVE HIM ALONE... I JUST WANT HIM TO STOP FORCING ME TO LOVE HIM... IT DOES NOT HELP THE SITUATION... IF HE WANTS ME TO LOVE HIM REALLY, HE REALLY HAS TO DO SOMETHING FOR US... I KNOW HE CAN DO ANYTHING IF HE REALLY WANTS... I JUST CAN'T KEEP THIS UP ANY MORE... IT TOOK ME 2 YEARS TO REALIZE THAT I DO LOVE HIM... I'M SUCH A DUMB, BUT SINCE START HE REALLY WAS IN LOVE WITH ME... THAT IS ALL I KNOW AND FEEL... I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS WAITING FOR US... I GUESS NOTHING IS POSSIBLE FOR US....
I JUST LET HIM GO... I JUST WANT HIM TO LET ME GO... LET ME GO AND LET ME BE ALONE... I CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE BECAUSE IT REALLY HURTS... IF IT DOES NOT HURT YOU, IT IS YOUR ISSUE... IF YOU HAVE SOME KIND OF EMPATHY, JUST LET ME GO... ONE DAY, MAYBE WE CAN TRY TO BE FRIENDS... MAYBE, WE CAN BECOME FRIENDS... I JUST KNOW THAT I LOVE HIM... I DO NOT KNOW WHAT KIND OF LOVE IT IS, BUT IT IS A DIFFERENT TYPE OF LOVE... I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE....
Dangerous games
Proceed with the Id,
Then the EGO gets crazy,
Feeling lonely,
Feeling hopeless...
Minds are confused,
Hearts are empty,
There is only the pathetic sound
Of the silence, rage and sexual expectations...
He comes closer to the girl,
The girl allows him to touch
Every part of her,
No hesitation,
No questioning...
Wild wet kisses
Clouding over their tender bodies,
Their bond is untouchable,
Their love is intense...
The snow flakes fall from the sky,
The girl kisses him all over,
Not afraid, not ashamed...
The man likes to take the CONTROL,
The girl allows him to KISS
all over her like feeling the sexual freedom
Of a butterfly covered with purple wings...
Not ready yet to LET the other Lust
She feels for another guy to GO...
Not happy to cheat on the other guy
With the wet touches of the new OLD guy...
Was it love?
Was it an imagination?
Was it sincere?
Was it real?
She wakes up,
Then the night appears
Like the dark bells of a castle
In which she lets the old man ALONE,
Burying him ALIVE,
Finding a way to the light...
THIS LOVE IS OVER... HE IS NOT WELCOME TO MY SEXUAL FANTASIES...
ENOUGH OF HIM!!!
Returning back is a good feeling... I hated FUCKING UK... I had a massive trauma... Then, I could never achieve to balance my emotions and decrease my worries at all... If there had been one small opportunity, IT SHOULD HAVE HAPPENED. It had been 11 months and I will return back NEXT WEEK... How does it FEEL? To be HONEST, I JUST WANT TO GO OUT ONCE A WEEK AND SLEEP!!! I'm mentally drained, tired and FUCKED UP!!! I have no idea if I WILL GET MY DEGREE... WELL, FUCK IT TOO... IT WAS A DIRTY MONEY OF A DICK HEAD MAN NAMED KEANU REEVES... HE PAID ALL THE MONEY AND HIS MONEY GAVE ME NO CHANCE TO STAY IN FUCKING UK... ANYWAY, I AM RACIST!!!:)
About Keanu, for a millionaire he paid very LESS money to me... LOL LOL LOL!!!
FUCK HIS MONEY AND FUCK UK... I met no one, I had no friends... I had no job... I never enjoyed being a STUDENT... Will I go abroad ever again? FUCK NO... I will never pay for fuckers anymore... I still want to do MY PHD... In my own country, I will MAKE IT... Suppose that one day, I get married and my husband has to work in overseas... I swear on my grandmother, I will get a divorce... I will never go to another country... My REAL PLACE IS TURKEY... AS A TURKISH PERSON, I DO BELONG TO TURKEY... Look, whatever shits I DID AS A STUDENT IN ANOTHER CITY IN TURKEY, I COULD NOT DO ANY SHITS IN UK... SO, what's the point to COME HERE AND STUDY ONE FUCKING YEAR AND GIVING LOTS OF MONEY FOR A VERY LAME EDUCATION? OF COURSE, I AM FUCKING PISSED OFF... THAT IS LIFE... FUCK UK... FUCK UK... FUCK UK... FUCK UK... FUCK UK...
Well, I never came here to FIND A BF anyway... However, I came here to find someone TO USE to stay in UK... My plan has failed... That is the only guy left for me: EX!!! I get into his mind USING KEANU ENERGY and I RAPE HIS MIND TO RETURN BACK TO ME... A little bit, he is OPENED UP... LOL LOL LOL... THANKS TO REEVES, I AM A FUCKING GOOD MINDFUCKER... I LOVE TO RAPE HIS MIND... HE SAYS I LOVE YOU... I BROKE HIS BEING CLOSED UP... HE SAYS I LOVE YOU A LOT... WHILE I RAPE HIS MIND, I KINDA PLAY WITH KEANU AS WELL... LOOOOOOL.... I SUCK HIS SEXUAL ENERGY, I ALLOW HIM TO SUCK MY SEXUAL ENERGY... I MESS THE ENERGIES UP... I am not a nice PERSON... SORRY ABOUT THAT... LIFE IS A SHIT, THEN BE A REAL SHIT...:)
I MAKE LOVE WITH MY EX ON ASTRAL... I MAKE LOVE EVERY NIGHT... I DIRECT REEVES ENERGY ON TO HIM... HE CAN'T RESIST ME!!! However, when I return back, he won't be in Turkey... He is in USA... Only GOD KNOWS WHEN HE WILL RETURN BACK TO TURKEY... I CURSE HIS MOTHER TO PASS AWAY FOR YEARS... THE BITCH IS SICK, BUT SHE DOES NOT DIE... LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL...
Thus, I need to wait a few years more for my ex to return back to TURKEY... His mother will pass away... He has to come back for her FUNERAL... She is a fucking widow CUNT!!! LOL LOL LOL So, I am glad to return back HOME... About my MASTER PROGRAMME, I DO NOT FEEL I WILL GET THE DEGREE... I MIGHT RETAKE THE DISSERTATION... FUCK ITTT... LOOOOOOOL LOOOOOOOOOL LOOOOOOOOL...
At the end of the day, when there is NO HOPE, YOU JUST FACE IT... With lots of clothes, it is a bit hard to pack things up AGAIN... Life is weird, maybe I may meet another famous man and he can pay me his dirty money. Then, I MIGHT GO TO USA... THEN, I MIGHT FIND MY EX BF... That's my new goal... I won't go to usa TO STUDY... Just for a cheap course...IF I EARN, I WILL MAKE IT... THAT IS ALL...
GOODBYE FUCKING DISGUSTING SHTTY UK... THESE ARE THE LAST DAYS... IN THE LAST MINUTE DO I BELIEVE THAT A MIRACLE CAN HAPPEN? BITE MY ASS DICKHEADS... LOL LOL LOL LOL THERE IS NO WAY TO STAY... ANYWAY, I TRIED MY LUCK TO THE LAST MINUTE,SO NO REGRETS...
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE
HAVING ANOTHERRRRRRRRRR NEUROTIC ATTACK BADLY... I HOPE TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY!!!!
MUPPET GIRL:)
Take me to the woods,
Let us listen to the silence,
Next to one another,
Cuddling forever,
Above us the heaven,
Above us the golden light...
There has to be a way,
For us to GET BACK together,
Take me again into your life,
I would be your little guardian angel...
You are still a virgin boy,
I will make you a MAN...
Let us tune ourselves into love.
Above us the blue sky,
Above us the sun,
Above us the wooden house,
Let us LIVE TOGETHER...
There has to be a way,
For us to feel the love
We had lost long ago,
Come to me again,
I won't run...
I won't reject...
Just there will be our romance...
Let us forget the past,
We ended up with no one,
There is the sign
For a second chance...
I promise that I won't ruin
ANYTHING this time...
Come to me
Hug me again
Be my lover again,
I shall be your little fairy...
Fly with me,
Roar with me....
Let us show all the world,
No one will separate US...
FOR A FUCKING EX BF...
I HOPE HE RETURNS WHEN I RETURN BACK TO MY OWN COUNTRY... IF I HAVE TO RETURN BACK, THERE HAS TO BE ONLY REASON THAT CONFIRMS I WILL GET MY EX BACK...
BYE FUCKERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS....
The broken mirror
Goes its own way,
Life is a full package
Of severe disappointments...
Selfishness is my best teddy bear
Every night,
We fuck each other so HARD!!!
Oh, sweet lilies...
Oh, sweet daisies...
I can smell their perfumes,
However, I can never TOUCH
Any of them...
It hurts bad,
It is an unbearable pain,
Yet, it makes me more Wild...
I'm ready for a new beginning,
I know deeply that
I will destroy the new FLAME,
Anyway, they all are a time killer,
Like a good FUCK,
When you are done with IT,
You are on your own,
Happier and more satisfied...
Yeah, they can go away...
My heart does not accept them,
My soul giggles
Like a lunatic nun,
They shall never get the virgin one
INSIDE OF THEIR DICKS...
LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL!!!!
ONE SHALL TAKE:):):)
F U C K L-O-V-E!!!
That's all fuckers...Now go and fuck each other... That's all you do in your fucking LIVES...
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
Ocean is like a diamond
In which I keep searching for a lifetime...
I had seen many empty oceans
That have a lack of water...
Their hearts were dry,
Their souls were sick,
They were too weak...
I explore new oceans,
I just need to get naked
And mingle with the sexual desires
Coming from my inside
Like a sparkling flame...
I shall no more wait...
I shall go with the flow
By allowing new hands
Wandering all over me,
Without any feeling of hatred...
Without any feeling of shame...
Without any feeling of regret...
I shall no more love,
I shall no more curse,
I shall vanish,
I shall become dust,
I shall only make love with demons,
Their touch is erotic,
Their smell is insatiable,
I just can't resist...
Stop the fantasies,
Get lost in the spiritual realms of ghosts...
Feel their presence,
Erase the past,
Open up towards the new pleasures of
Sexual intentions,
By giving your soul to satan
Rather than any alive beings...
OMG!OMG!OMG! ONLY, THE SKY IS THE LIMIT!!!
Autumn brings no love,
A lot of grief remains...
No one stands beside me,
No one will come along,
People are like a garbage,
I throw them away,
I satisfy my toxic soul,
Love includes only depression,
Feelings are all over each other,
Bodies are all far from each other,
While souls make love,
There is nobody can touch
And sense other's scent...
The children are bothering me,
Too many unwanted voices coming from darkness...
I disappear from their lives,
Now, I hold my guard up,
Once again, I let my feelings go
Till eternity, I shall keep them
As a possession that I played
And then got sick of...
There is no love coming...
There is only me and my two hands
Masturbating and masturbating and masturbating...
Going off the limits,
I doubt my own femininity,
Let me fuck them both like a man,
In the same night,
In the same night...
One is running away,
Other one is never going away,
But never coming to ME!!!
WOW!!! WOWWWWWW! WOWWWWWWWWW!!! BURNING UPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!
OH YEAHHHHHHHHHHHH, OH YEAHHHHHHHHH, OH YEAHHHHHH...
ANY FUCKING COMMENTS FOR SUCH A POEM?
FUCK YOU ALLL...:):):)
Let us drink the liquid of lust
While we're undressing one another,
Feeling high on each other's body,
Seizing the joy and agony same time
By becoming ONE in a close INTIMACY...
Kiss me deeply,
I will kiss you more deeply,
Your lips give me a feeling of sweet tender,
My lips seal yours
Now, you're in my prison,
I will never let you go...
Let us make love
Fully in the moonlight,
Like we are getting over doze...
Let me touch your soul,
I let you to touch mine...
In return, let us stick with TOGETHER,
Like two brutal animals,
Desiring to feed their own generation...
Touch me twice,
I touch you more than twice...
Kiss me for the last time,
I kiss you without taking my lips
Away from your cherry lips...
I want you back,
Come back, come back, come back...
The door is open,
Just you need to get in,
Then finish the thing
We never ever DID IT!!!
For EX, NOT FOR THE DICK!!!:)
OMG... I WANT MY EX... I WANT HIM, I WANT HIM, I WANT HIM...:)
LOL LOL LOL LOL LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
WHEN I RETURN BACK, THIS BLOG WON'T LAST...:)
WHAT EVER THE JOB FINDS ME!!!
F U C K
LOVE!!!
