Hope is Gone

Hope is gone,
Turbulent life in which my soul surrenders
All the initial occurings,
Dropping like a crystal rain,
Thus, I have let the pain grow
Inside of all my veins...

The sweet breeze interrupts
The sad holographic moments,
Yet, the black wand takes over
The deserted rosemary garden of
The key point hidden over wasted dreams...

Stopping to ponder your shadow,
Merely focused on the lonely clock
That has stuck in a poignant delirium.
Therefore, the purple veil has covered
The tangled fuzziness in which I slowly
Falling from the hideous years of
Being captivated underneath your supreme
Protection without my allowance...

The waves rapidly have been mirroring
The TWO wounded spirits shaped by
Twisted figures that lean on
Their common blue emotions of
Being dispersed away
In a shallow mindset...

PS: I will JUST PRAY and I let YOU go till the ETERNITY. I will never BOTHER you anymore...

Please STAY away, too... If I have a CRISIS, I will just scribble a few worthless words...BYE!

tribute to the FINAL END

 

Please GO AWAY because I am really going away. I can't deal with your PSYCHO LOVE anymore. DEEP DOWN, I know that you never cared about me and you never loved me. To be honest, I never loved any fake identities of YOURS. YOU ARE A FACELESS MAN SO STAY IN DISGUISE REEVES AND GET A LIFE...

    As I overcame my sadness and depression with regard to every MYSTERY in the puzzle, I DO NOT NEE DYOU ANYMORE... Just stop this weird love and communication. STOP BRUISING MY ARMSSSSSSS IN ORDER TO HOLD ME IN OTHER DIMENSIONS. I JUST WOULD LIKE TO SLEEP ON MY OWN AND IN A PEACEFUL WAY. DO YOU GET THAT? You have to understand that we have really reached at the FINAL END!!!

    You know very well that I DO NOT LOVE YOU ANYMORE and you get CRAZY so much that YOU DO NOT LET GO OF HOLDING MY ARMS. YOU STARTED TO HURT ME THIS WAY AND YOU CANNOT CONTROL YOURSELF. I'M OUT OF YOUR SPIRITUAL LIFE, YOUR REAL LIFE AND YOUR CYBER LIFE...

    Lastly, I DO NOT WANT A FRIEND. I DO NOT WANT A BOYFRIEND. I DO NOT WANT A SPIRITUAL BOND. I DO NOT WANT A SPIRITUAL FRIENDSHIP. THEREFORE, you should just leave me on my own... I really feel like I'm dying, can you PLEASE STOP LOVING ME AND can you please find a new BAIT. THANK YOU... Let me literally DIE... DO IT...

Byeeee... I can not deal with your CRAZY FEELINGS...

PLEASE LEAVE MY LIFE... I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU DUDE!!!

tribue to the END

THE END

The ends are always like a wasted time,
But they can lead us towards a new chapter,
In which I will reedit all the mistakes
That I did in the past
By reckoning a piper dream
Of becoming TOGETHER...

It must have been a very down
Feeling to be caught out in all
The EVIL damages that he had caused,
Yet, he will never stop...
Life will give his karma back,
I will walk down the road alone,
Leave the girl alone,
She will be always blue.
However, she will never be YOURS...

PS: GET OUT OF MY LIFE BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOUR DUMB CHARACTERS WHOM HAVE NO FACE...

LET ME DIE...

deep breaths

Deep breaths,
Feeling the remote emotions,
Ending up in a mental hospital,
However, any pill would heal
The heart aches of the Little Mia...

Towards la la land,
Yet, the cast is GONE,
He has only the rubbish script now,
Moving out in a dungeon,
The piano voices make the Little Mia
Delusional, insane and fixated...

Towards la la land,
Yet, the moon has stopped shining,
He has only the silence now,
Scattered away down to the end of UNIVERSE,
The vindictivieness is waiting for its own time,
The wasted hopes slowly have been dispersed
In the twisted images of black swans
That has no choice of being a part
Of entrapped souls of the TWO DARK COINS
Waiting for to be hidden in creepy skulls...

PS: IT'S COMPLETELY OVER. STOP HOLDING MY ARMS TOO TIGHT AND STOP SQUEEZING MY SHOULDERS AND STOP ASKING FORGIVENESS AND STOP YOUR WEIRD SOUL CONNECTION. ADMIT THAT I DO NOT LOVE YOU ANYMORE...

GOOD-BYE...

STOP MESSING UP WITH MY YOUTUBE CHANNELS...

Little Buddha Girl

I seek for a LONELY MAN who HAS A REAL face...

WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND...

tribute to MISERY

At least, I HAVE SAID EVERYTHING TO THE INSANE MAN. WHAT DID IT CHANGE? AS ALWAYS, NOTHING. Of course, we will never TALK as we used to. I guess I TELL EVERYTHING to the people I LOVE, BUT IN RETURN THEY CAN'T CHOOSE TO BE MINE. IT IS DIFFICULT...

I have lots of MISERIES... I will be just OK. Regarding my EX, I watched a TV RPOGRAMME today. LOL! WHAT CAN I DO? I HAVE NOTHING TO DO IN LIFE... 

AFTERWARDS, THE MAN SAID IF THE PERSON LOVES YOU AND LEAVES YOU ALONE ON THE ROAD, THAT IS A TYPE OF LOVE NOT EVERYONE CAN CARRY WITH. HOW TRUE! HE COULD NOT CARRY ME ON THE ROAD OF LOVE... FUCK HIM...

I WAS THINKING TO MESSAGE MY EX, BUT HE IS NOT WORTH IT. INSTEAD, I FOUND A WAY TO TALK TO THE INSANE MAN. HE NEVER LEFT ME ALONE ON THE ROAD OF LOVE BECAUSE HE HAD NEVER CHOSEN ME. IT IS A GOOD EXPERIENCE FOR ME NOT TO BE CHOSEN...

THE ONES WHOM CHOSEN ME WERE GONE TOO SOON. THE ONES WHOM CAN NEVER CHOOSE ME ALWAYS FIND A WAY TO LEAK INTO MY MISERABLE LIFE.  THE OUTCOME IS I AM ALWAYS ALONE AND I AM NOT SUPRISED ABOUT SUCH A TRAGIC OUTCOME...

REGARDING MY EX, I STARTED PRAYERS TO COMMUNICATE WITH HIM. I COMMUNICATED WITH THE INSANE MAN. I DO NOT KNOW HOW THIS PRAYERS CAUSED ME TO TALK TO HIM. 

OVERALL, LOVE IS NOT FOR ME TO CARRY WITH AS WELL...

MISERY IS WHAT I ALWAYS WISH FOR BECAUSE IT IS EASIER TO DEAL WITH YOUR OWN MISERIES RATHER THAN DEALING WITH LOVE.

THE END OF THE STORY!!!

NOW HE STOPPED TO BOTHER ME A BIT...

SHOULD I SAY THANKS?

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE...

Walking Away

Walking away,
Once again, the moon got darker,
I envision the purple flags
Swinging madly in love,
Yet, the empty feelings proceed with
The mirage of solitary nights...

Walking away,
Once again, I run into a white rabbit,
Yet, I seek for the wonderland
That I can reach at some peace
Rather than being followed
By a dreamcatcher that
Keeps on Holding me
Too Tight and Too Timid...

PS: Leave me ALONE.

I DON'T CARE IF YOU ARE IN LOVE...

reflections of a mirror

Reflections of a Mirror

The indescribable flow
Of holographic emotions
In which I end up with
Endless and pessimistic roads...

Catching up with the fire
That seems like a lonely manuscript
Of the reaper that leaks into our lives,
Tearing apart the intimate moments
Of the previous chapters in which
We both had been such a poetic harmony,
Just like the reflections of a mirror
Therefore, we had only deceived ourselves
With our own holistic masks...

PS: So what, IF WE BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH. WE WON'T be TOGETHER because WE ARE BOTH STRUGGLING WITH OUR OWN MISERIES...

Please, JUST GIVE ME A BREAK. No one Wins... No one Loses...

Can you STOP Loving ME. I can't Breath no longer...